"THINKINGNESS" PAGE

Please...... will you at least talk to me.... if im alway from your for to long ill go crazy.... i know you think im already a crazy and phycotic girl who knows nothing about what shes talking about .....and your right, that IS who i am but you could at least pretend you like talking to me. Im not even sure if you even care to talk to me ( wich is basically the same thing...uh sorta but who cares really besides me?), it just makes me sad. What ever happened to us.. i know i have a bf and i shouldnt be talkin like this but c'mon, how could i forget about you? you were my first love ^_^ but then...you just.....*sigh* well i have no idea where we went wrong...okay so maybe I DO have an idea ...... "I Do" i wish i could have said that to you the way we were supposed to.... Ansem would have been so happy...Ansem, Surf, Yuna.... now all of us are separated. I miss all them crazy people from the KH...only bits and peices remain. i talk to ansem ocassionally, Surf is on my msn but we never talk, i have yuna on my list but i havent seen her since the last party she had... ( that time when we got drunk... after you asked me the life changing question), i just added sugar high sora to my yahoo, top rank soldier officer sephiroth is on my list but i never talk to him, rinoa is.... well i talk to her almost never, cloud.... well i added him to my new sn but hes....uh <_< >_>;; no, and knives... i talk to him occasionally on msn. i know it sound like alot of people im still in contact with but... i mean c'mon think about it, its really not. What happened to attkins improved seohiroth, ....uh........*thinks* ...regularo sora....OKAY SO I DONT REMEMBER ANY MORE but it doesnt matter! i just miss all the random people! i miss the KH room! i miss you! i miss us! i miss being together! and i know you think its stupid but....but nothing... i know how you feel. Me being an annoying girl that claims shes gotten over you but you know she really hasnt... shes just hiding it from herself only letting go at times when she needs to hear your name again. when she wants you to be with her again. You once told me you loved me with all your heart and you never wanted to leave my side, that you truely loved me. was that just a lie? i know for a fact after we parted that you missed me... you showed me and you told me.then your stupid crackheadedness told me you never said that. do you honestly not remember a single bit of our relationship!?YOU HAVE TO! I REMEMBER EVER BIT, YOU WORTHLESS BASTARD!!!! WHAT HAPPENED TO THE TIMES AT THE LAKE AND IN THE WOODS!?!?! WHAT ABOUT THE TIME WE WENT ON THE TREASURE HUNT WITH ANSEM AND KNIVES!? HUH!? WHAT ABOUT WHEN YOU ASKED ME TO MARRY YOU!? AND THE TIME ON THE BEACH WHEN WE GOT IN A FIGHT AND I SAID I WAS WORTHY TO BE YOUR WIFE AND I THREW THE RING IN YOUR FACE!!! WHAT ABOUT ALL THOSE TIMES I TRIED TO KILLMYSELF AND YOU SAID IF I DID THEN YOUD HAVE TO DIE ALONG WITH ME!!!!! FUCK!!!! WHY DID YOU DO THIS TO ME!!!YOUR JUST LIKE MY BROTHER THAT TURNS GIRLS INTO CRAZY PHYCO BITCHES!!!!!*storms out*

Yeah im pretty damn pissed that my crappy computer cant compute with the demands in demanding on it......??? if that even made any sense?ahhhh!!!! no im listening to the Neon Genisis Evangelion Opening song!!!!must not sing the words!!!! *motifies a uh...not so good picture* anyway.... so i thought i might modify some pix and submit them to uh...<_<;; (only you peoples know what im talking about kstak and lauren and shyann) "Those sites" yeah because i made one....IDKY but i did and it looks pretty damn good. yeah its rin........ me lovey dis sownga!SOUNGA!LIKE THE SWORD OF HELL ON IYM3!!!! great movie.. yeah i have a picture of some chick fromt he 4th movie *drool* wel yeah... since this is basically my first entry then...............i have my 4th "TB" yeah it mentions Bap bap-sama/Bap-sempai alot..sorta....OH CRAP I TOTALLY ALMOST FORGOT I HAVE A DEVIANT ART ACCOUNT!!! must add to it!!! well for those of yous peeepoles that wanna see my DA account then go to this place